I want to say hello
To the wedges deep inside me
Those parts I want to meet.

I want to say goodbye
To the chunks resting
on everything that shows they’re known

If they could only divorce
Be created in two different paths
For me, to figure out what
I need
What I should suffer to keep
What is desired to leave behind. 

This culture of blessing
Is ambushed
With screams built upon
To ward away
The thoughts
Of escape.

I want to recreate.
At dawn
Watch the sunrise
While the superior
Grows inside.

So, despite my lack of breath
At night
I shall exhale while
Our biggest star
Will remiss these white walls
That says
“you’re depressed”

But there is still fear
Of kisses at a young age
Eyelashes to eyelashes
Butterflies instead of embrace

Of wailing in a childhood home
That now holds the ghosts
Of terror
From an eleven-year-old
That lacks the attention
Due to independence

Of grooming
From neighborhood faces
Heartless
Wide eyed adolescence
Will be forgotten
For a flourish shape.

When I come around
We will move like the ocean
My blood
Will know
Today is not real

dashboard confessions
Remember everything
Including scar tissue

A light on the hill
Can feel a hot one

The hate
Will love me forever