Clever child, he put on the coy smile of such-a-good-boy, then the scrunch-nose and broken glasses of the spelling whiz, later the mirror-love of the adolescent athlete. As the years gathered, he tried on the glam glitter of the rock idol, the moping scowl of the short-bus kid, then black mascara goth with a snake-phallus tattoo on his shoulder to lend him the cred of innocence deflowered. When the time came the tattoo was hidden by a polyester suit, paisley tie, a homogenized smile and scripted explanations of his best and worst character traits. Then, with dizzying caprice, the mocking smirk at infidelity, the fabricated concern for the unlucky rival, the paralyzed mask of the too sane professional, the beatific smile of the insincere benefactor, the predatory eyes of the tarot card prognosticator, and the enigmatic shrug to who are you really? He let the question dangle in a pile of stolen visages, masks used and discarded, from Ryan Gosling to Anderson Cooper to Victor Frankenstein, secreted into his remorseless memory along with the carnival mask meant for Lent, and the beaked mask from the reign of Charles II, offering impotent protection from the Plague. Too late the discovery that the stolen flesh and borrowed character of a hundred masks had stuck barbs into his own face, looping parasitic tendrils into his empty psyche, so that when he finally faced God, he was judged only for what he had chosen and not at all for who he thought he was. The world being a stage, failing to master his own role, he was forced to start the whole damned thing over again, beginning with the word “enter.”
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